HATE.Ringing.Telephones.
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Fined for overdue books. Deserved it. Now, I can't borrow anything until the fines are cleared. Great~ Needs to read Ian Rankin's new book, The Naming of the Dead.

Brushing up on my drawing. Dusting out the olde tablet. Starting to get familiar with it. Not really as intuitive as I thought it to be. Been thinking of doing an animation at the moment. Playing around with the story. Hard to say if it'll come to fruition. Always been much of a procrastinator yours truly. Sucks when you have been neglecting whatever you've learnt for the past 3 years. Now you have to slowly relearn everything again. Guilty.

Gained a lot of weight recently. Doesn't help that people actually noticed. Not good. Have to start losing it a.s.a.p.

There's much to believe in. Just how much of it is real? I'm beginning to ask myself alot of that.
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Longing for another book. It's been a long while. Borrowed Gibson's Neuromancer. Couldn't get past the first page when I realised the deadline just passed. Feeling that there's too many stuff going on. Think it's just me. Heard of Ian Rankin's new book, The Naming of the Dead. Really want to get my hands on one. Just about done reading all his books, almost.
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Wow March is already approaching. Soon February 2007 will be gone like a blink, kinda like how January was. January was probably my busiest month in the SAF; so busy that I can't remember anything I did during that month.

February I can remember. For one, it started pretty smashing. After 4 months of trolling, I finally got my 2B license on the first day of February. This means that I'm now given the "privilege" to ride a motorbike not more than 200cc. I remembered on the day I took the 2B Traffic Police test, I tried to look all calm and indifferent but god knows inside, it was butterflies in my stomach. In the end, I kept my nerve and got what I wanted.

Then there was the week after that, actually barely a week after that. Took a day off from camp to go out bike surveying with my step-dad. Wasn't really thinking of getting my bike but as it happened, I returned home with one on that same day Hahaha. Wasn't expecting to buy a bike so soon and there I was, riding one back home. It's a Honda CBR 150, one of the bikes at the top of my list and I've think I've made the right choice. It's always exciting when you get something new but this felt different. My own bike with my own cash. It was like venturing into a new unknown. Ok, ok maybe it's not that epic but it was what it felt like. Of course like most erm, feelings, you'll soon grow out of it. Blame it when a newbie gets his/her new toy or something hehe.

Had interesting conversations with a few friends in the past weeks. Got talking about some topics that were quite interesting and a welcoming distraction to the rush that is in recent days. It's been some time since I got into a "serious" conversation. In this respect, I've always preferred talking to instant messaging. I rather enjoyed it. Breaks down the niceties and discuss what we really think. Perspectives brought out in a different light. Refreshing.

What I'm seriouly lacking right now is arty works. Looking at the new deviantArtwerx, everyone has progressed by leaps and bounds that I'm left behind by miles, MILES. No question it's me screwing myself. Goals idealised but never kicked off. Procrastination just took over. Feel so helpless. Despite how I try to deny it, it's a quarter-life crisis right now. Then again, some people just don't realise they're in it. Move on.

Erm this is weird. Where did all these words come from?

Things are starting to pick up the pace recently. It can be pretty unpredictable but I'm not complaining. Just looking forward to the magical 7000 and I'll be damn happy.

Portfolio progress is zero at the moment. It's been more than a month since I last did anything. Not really satisfied with my last few deviations. Still not "there" yet. Been tinkering with the idea for another animation but still unsure if that's a wise choice. Can't really remember the pipeline, rigging and everything else really. Wanted to get to the drawing board this weekend but it's already Sunday night and I still haven't done anything at all. Will probably be based off my FYP animation but that's just one of the ideas. Hmm.

Just the thoughts. I'm gonna have to force myself to start something tomorrow. Please let me get something done.

Week in week out. Same old thing again. It's like the song goes, "I just want to lead a normal life". Who doesn't? Then again, everyone has their own intrepretations of what a "normal" life is.

Finally graduated. Memorable day it was. That was like 2 weeks ago hehe but it still feels weird. Felt great to meet old friends again after those 3 years with them. 3 years of working it out and it's all over just like that. The gear has changed and now, we move forward into the next phase of our life, whatever it may be. I'm already thinking about what to do after my national service ends. Ok, I'm always thinking about what to do after it ends. Progress on my portfolio has been snail-pace. Planning to draw everytime I get out during the weekends. Can't be bothered to draw when I'm staying in at camp. The environment there is just not conducive to drawing.

*sigh* Just 2D works at the moment. Finally got my "multimedia" computer working last week. Had to reformat my HD. So long old portfolio; for real...

Currently, only Photoshop is available. I'm lagging way behind in the 3D department. So badly want to refresh my 3D stuff. Just can't find my Max CD. Help! So want to get my hands on 3D thingy. Got some rough animation ideas. Think it's time to start a short 3D project. Thinking of working on the concepts next week.

Btw, still felt France was the better team.


Going 20 decibels and lower.

Music Cycle:

- The Cardigans' My Favourite Game
- Billy Joel's All About Soul
- Blind Guardian's The Script for My Requiem

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It's a good thing. I've been struggling a little with my foot fracture for the past 3 weeks and thank goodness it's getting better. Have another medical checkup next Monday. Hope I can get off the painkillers. For the life I just can't be bothered to take them again. Keep forgetting that they exist. Besides, it's getting better anyway and with now that I'm in vocation that I'm in now, it'll be good in a few more days.

I'm in the next phase of my life serving the country. I'm posted to the service side. Initially, I was quite surprised and upset that I got posted to it but 3 days in, I've resigned myself to accepting and taking in the positives of it. You don't have a choice; so let it be.

Began building my portfolio again as you can see from The Question [link] . Hoping to start some momentum here. Procrastination is the devil. It's hard but I'm trying to put some action into my ideas. Currently thinking of making a short animation project. I hope to get it started soon but beyond that idea, I have other ideas lol. Can't seem to get my perspectives right. Have to start something or I'll get nothing done.

... Here's him talking to himself.

Rant. I find it perplexing. I'm stymied that some of the masses are so accepting of alternative medicine, despite their lack of evidence in effectiveness, but so quick to bludgeon and question the effectiveness of modern medicine, which actually works. Judging from television and from reading the newspapers here, I'm starting to think that we, Singaporeans, are getting too influenced and falling into this claptrap of New Age woo woo fallacy where their limitations have expanded beyond the boundaries of fiction.

There's not much, if any, real science in it. Yet people make a bee line for them.
With all this woo woo ideas floating around, it feels as if the world is trying to move back 100 years and yet, at the same time, move forward. Seemingly, a paradox.